Posted by: liturgicalyear | September 19, 2013

When homeschooling is in full swing

hopeI stopped homeschooling 4 years ago when my youngest child went to high school.  My days are different now, but I never seem to be able to shake that “end of September” feeling.  It’s sort of a subconscious awareness, a recollection of point in time – the one that goes something like this: “What the heck was I thinking?” This thought is often accompanied by feelings of being overwhelmed and buried by the demands of the day, crying out to God, “Out of the depths I cry unto you, O Lord.  Lord, hear my voice in supplication!” (Ps 130, De Profundis)

Self-doubt can engulf us.  Somewhere along the way, we clearly heard the call to homeschool, but somewhere else along the way we scratch our heads wondering if we really heard it properly.  I contend that life is full of these moments – clarity of call and questioning in hindsight.  During such moments, the enemy has a field day!  Standing steadfastly in faith and hope and persevering in trust combat the snares of devil.  They are key actions in the battle of heart, mind, and soul that occurs in each person’s life.

A beautiful meditation in a recent Magnificat exhorts us to persevere:

Keep up good courage. Evil thoughts have come? Then let them come and let them go. Be at peace; think no more about it, but turn your heart straight to God. Make no parley with your temptation, but just let it alone. By debating about it in your mind, you shall suffer more misery than the demon himself has caused you. All this trouble comes from excessive despondency, which may end by his suggesting despair, and saying: Everything you do is vain and useless – you are lost forever.

The thing to do in such a case is to cast “all care upon God” and rest in him. Turn to the eternal God with unshaken trust in his goodness and mercy. Do as mariners do when threatened with a shipwreck – cast your anchor deep down to the bottom of God’s love and grace. Place your confidence firmly in God our Lord. If it comes even to the end of life, and a man in deep distress shall but anchor all his hopes in God and die in that mind, it is truly a happy and holy death.

Children, be well assured that a really godly man must dwell in the practice of divine hope just as much as in any other of the divine virtues; and that is a great help to him when at last he comes to meet death.  But this must not be a false and deceitful confidence in God, trusting in which a man presumes to lead a sinful life; for whosoever trusts in  God and on the strength of that lives wickedly, sins against the Holy Spirit. The confidence in God that I mean springs from the depths of true humility and love. It is based on consciousness of one’s helplessness; it is a most reasonable recognition of the need of God’s help; it is part of a true and full and joyful conversion to God; for whosoever gives himself up to God loves and trusts God sincerely.

Father John Tauler, OP
Magnificat, November, 2012, Vol. 14, No. 9, p 381-382

Jesus, I trust in You!  Anne

Song for the day:  Hold On by Twila Paris

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