I’m in one of those really cool places spiritually. It doesn’t happen often, but when it does, I pay attention.
Joseph had dreams. Mary saw an angel. John had visions. Nothing like that happens to me. God reveals Himself to me in the ordinary events of my life. I have really been trying to be docile to the Holy Spirit following God – instead of the other way around, which is often my manner.
Thursday morning my phone rang at 7AM. I thought it was my daughter from the carpool saying she’d forgotten something. It was Barbara. She called to tell me how much she is enjoying her new job and then proceeded to talk about her recent classes.
The day before they had worked on poetry. She regaled, “I even was able to use a psalm!” (Having previously taught at secular school and now at a Catholic school, she was pretty psyched.) She schemed, “I think I’ll use another one today.” I immediately suggested my favorite, Psalm 139. Verses 13-14 are ones that every person should hear, and especially young women, “You formed my inmost being; you knit me in my mother’s womb. I praise you Lord, that I am fearfully, wonderfully made.” We all need to hold on to His purposeful fashioning of our lives.
Arriving at in the parking lot, Barbara had to go. We hung up, and I went about my house tidying up and getting ready for the day. I went to Mass, leaving a bit later than planned & then being delayed by back to school traffic. I was aggravated at some of the events of my morning & flew into the pew. By the time I arrived, the priest had just finished praying the opening prayer.
I settled down to listen to the readings. The Old Testament reading from Genesis calmed me – being created in the image and likeness of God. Then the lector proclaimed the Psalm – Psalm 139. My eyes just filled with tears and they spilled down my cheeks. A kiss from heaven. A gentle reminder of the uniqueness of my creation and His desire to create me. What a mighty, yet intimate, God we serve!
Take a moment to read this beautiful psalm:
O LORD, you have probed me, you know me:
you know when I sit and stand; you understand my thoughts from afar.
My travels and my rest you mark; with all my ways you are familiar.
Even before a word is on my tongue, LORD, you know it all.
Behind and before you encircle me and rest your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is beyond me, far too lofty for me to reach.
Where can I hide from your spirit? From your presence, where can I flee?
If I ascend to the heavens, you are there; if I lie down in Sheol, you are there too.
If I fly with the wings of dawn and alight beyond the sea,
Even there your hand will guide me, your right hand hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely darkness shall hide me, and night shall be my light” —
Darkness is not dark for you, and night shines as the day. Darkness and light are but one.
You formed my inmost being; you knit me in my mother’s womb.
I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works! My very self you knew;
my bones were not hidden from you, When I was being made in secret, fashioned as in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes foresaw my actions; in your book all are written down; my days were shaped, before one came to be.
How precious to me are your designs, O God; how vast the sum of them!
Were I to count, they would outnumber the sands; to finish, I would need eternity.
God uses the events and circumstances of our day to remind us of His constant presence and care for us. We have to pray for the eyes to see, the heart to know, and the faith to believe that He is there. “Lord, help me to see Your love for me today.” “Holy Spirit give me eyes to see Your work in my life today.” “Lord, I believe, help my unbelief.”
He knew us first before our mothers even knew we existed. He knows our thoughts before we do. He knows what we’re going to say before we say it. He knows where we will go before we go. He sees our actions before we do.
He knew I would talk to Barbara about my favorite psalm. He knew I would delight in her happiness. He knew I would be agitated in the aggravations of my morning. He knew I needed to be reminded how much I am loved and that I am fearfully wonderfully made.
The rest of the day was amazing. I can’t even quite put it into words. All I can say is that I had eyes to see and ears to hear. It was one of those days where it was really clear that God had a plan for me, and I just needed to say yes to what He put in front of me. It wasn’t what I had planned at all. It was better!
He goes before us, Anne
Heavenly Harmony, song for the day: Masterpiece by Sandy Patty – get a hankie!